I heard early on in the rooms that when I was being humble, or showing humility, I would not even know it. Humility is the antithesis of pride and ego. An acronym for ego that I am personally fond of is Edging God Out. For me, this happens when I start to think I can do things on my own. I have proven abundantly that doing things my way does not work, so only an absence of humility and an explosion of ego can convince me otherwise. I think evidence of true humility is when someone finally makes use of another spiritual principle, surrender. When I surrendered to something greater than myself, and became willing to do whatever was necessary to get and stay sober, I think some level of humility started to grow inside of me. Now, I have a very large ego and I am very aware of that fact. I often get caught up in the “my way is the right way” mentality and become unwilling to listen to anyone else, or accept any help. I know today that if I act, and continue to act, on defects of character like this it will eventually lead me to believe that I, not God, has gotten me to where I am today. Father Martin said that alcoholics and addicts have a unique ability to forget the pain of the past. We forget being dopesick or in the violent torment of delirium tremens. We forget all the mess we leave in our wake and all the others who suffer. We forget that on our own, our best thinking keeps us drunk and high! Thank God for some awareness today. I try not to pray for humility but I do regularly ask God to help me be aware when I am NOT being humble. So far, so good. Thanks for reading, I hope everyone has a great week!
31-Day Spiritual Guide: Day 9 – Humility